I don't know why, but I remember all these numbers. Perhaps I was obsessive with the scale at some points in my life. For the record I'm 5'8."
At my skinniest-125 lbs. graduating from high school. Boney is more the word probably.
135 lbs. graduating from college.
Sometime during the post college years my weight fluctuated alot and I actually got up to around 154, but I do feel that my "ideal" weight is around 140.
By the time I got married I was weighing 145.
One year after I got married i was weighing 157! hmmm....first year of marriage
And this is the exact time that I got pregnant! So my offical pre-pregnancy weight is 157.
I gained 48 pounds while I was pregnant tipping the scale at a whopping 205! I cried.
I was SWOLLEN!
Here is where I started to learn a lot about my own body. It's hard to accept the staying weight when everyone around you that also just had a baby is wearing their regular clothes one MONTH post-partum! Geez. Now, everyone and their mama and strangers and their mamas would tell me that if I just breastfeed the weight will come right off. Well, I am breastfeeding! And I did for 14 months. After the initial weightloss immediately after giving birth I plateaued at 176 for a LONG time. Still 20 lbs. more than my starting weight and 30-35 lbs. more than where I really wanted to be. I learned later that apparently 1 in 5 women DON'T lose the baby weight until they STOP breastfeeding. Keeping my fingers crossed I carried on. Well, that does make some since. I mean I guess I have all this extra armpit fat and backfat to help support the D's that I'm carrying around. Sure enough around month 9-10ish the weight starts coming off pretty steadily and sure enough just as my baby is turning one I'm buttoning my old pants and the scale tells me I'm 153! A little less than where I started! And sure enough just as soon as I'm buttoning my pants I'm peeing on a stick and it's telling me I'm pregnant AGAIN!
I am determined not to gain as much weight this time and make an effort not to. All is going well and I am maintaining my weight better and not gaining as much weight as fast. Then summer comes and I'm not working and it's hot as blue blazes and I don't want to move. Then a lot of different things happen and I'm on "bedrest" for the most part. Granted I probably would have gained the 50 lbs. anyway, but I tell myself that's why.
So here I am eight months out of my second pregnancy and that dreaded plateau is still lingering. The scale tells me 177 on a friendly day. However, I have noticed things shifting and I did button up some pants that were one size smaller than what I had to purchase initially to go back to work in. And honestly it's not the number that absolutely kills me. It's the belly.
Clothes just don't fit right. There's a certain sagginess to it that's hard to explain. If I pull up my pants too high there's the mom bulge that just looks ridiculous. If I don't pull them up high enough then there's the spill over. I really don't know what to do with that extra skin that's just hanging out down there. If I could just pull it up and duct tape it in place all would be well. I do worried that it may never go completely away and I assume that it probably has something to do with the two c-sections. But I'm embracing, remember? And the stretchmarks. I can handle the stretchmarks as long as some toning happens. So far, I've been doing a lot of walking, working out with Carmen (Electra that is, in order to be "Fit to Strip" ha), push-ups and baby curls:) So this is my journey. And as soon as school is out I'm going to be balls to the walls working out so I can make an appearance this summer in my bathing suit with a skirt.
Here's my before picture. Oh the streching!!! Only 33 weeks here:
Maybe I'll work up the nerve to post a recent before picture of my current belly....